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hi im doin this yes not long now,bin long year, ive bin up since 6am, my little girl ad me up again, wet,av strat putin nappies on at night again.are u okx
Hi kiera, I completely understand your fear, I have been there too, waiting around the corner, heart pounding to make sure that he leaves in a different direction to me, please don't think I don't know that.
What I want for you though is that every time you think or feel scared is to talk yourself round. To learn some self preservation. So rather than coming on here saying you are scared and everyone writing supportive, soothing words, I want you to come on maybe saying that you are freaking out, but you are glad that the woman from Wave is going, that you know from your last experience that he behaves himself in court.
This is not an easy thing to do - self soothe, but it is a very useful tool to have. Because it will help you feel better, it will make you feel more in control.
Nobody knows what will happen inside, outside or after court. But thinking the worst will just make you feel worse, it won't change anything.
Do you get what I mean? Anyhow best of luck tomorrow, I hope it all goes well and the Judge finally sees through this whole charade your ex has put you through. Please let us know what happens 
thanks anna,yes it as bin a charade, he as proved tht by lieing and failin drug tests,i am happy lady from wave is cumin with me,just want it over with,x
We'll be thinking of you tomorrow kiera, get a good nights sleep and tomorrow stand proud. Enough is enough and you are now taking back the control of your life
good luck keira let me kno how you got on mines on friday to x
hi bit worried cos lady from wave asnt got bk to me, ive tried ringin and leavin messages,bet i end up goin on my own, hope not, cos i dont need extra worry now, aw is ur court hearin friday, what wil appen do u think anoymousx
one of the dv agencies have done that to me aswell , hopefully they,ll be there for you tho cos you should be in there diary, its apparently a case management hearing on friday first time up in front of judge its been magistrates before,so im not exactly sure what gonna happen, what are you expecting hun ? x
hipehi hope you get some sleep tonight without your little girl getting up too early xx
Best wishes from me too
well now my younger son as dislocated his thumb, ambulance cum,he went to play footy sumone stood on his hand, my elder dawter as gonwith him to hospotal, cant believe ti, my little girl was in bath cryin for me,m so i stayed, they are waitin for exray now, i was getin early nyt for court but not now, av wait up for my son, poor ladx
aw hope he,s ok keira try an get some rest and let us know how you get on , chat soon x
Gosh it never rains but it pours, your poor boy and poor you to have this additional worry, good job your daughter was there to help out. Hope he got sorted ok.
Good luck today, kiera, we will be thinking of you, remember YOU CAN DO THIS, you know the score 
woke up heart pounding, feel sick, its just the thought seein him if hes outside the court, scares me to deathx
It's not a nice feeling xx thinking of you xx
Phew, the day is over, I hope that you are breathing a sigh of relief.
How did court go? How is your son's thumb?
hi well it was contested hearing and i swear i wudnt want to go thru tht again, i cried so much today, went on my own, spent alot time on my ownin a room, in mornin i walked out lift and ex stood right there, didnt no wot to do, i walked the other way, he was interrogated by my soliciter, and sayin bout his 4 kids, how he love dthem so much, mean he ad double life a baby i new nothing bout, and to hear him talk bout his new daughter, no1 understands at all, i ad to listen to it all, sayin tht he was vague wot he did to me on holiday when he put me in hospital ,i was in court 4 times today, swear now im ome feel like my head is gona burst, didn tav nothin eat or drink cos didnt want to leave room incase he was there , today was horrible
i got to court at 9.30am left at 4.40. got homw 6x
It sounds really stressful for you, thank heavens today is done. Did you get a ruling from the judge in the end?
How did it end hun?
well he got no contact at all, but indirect contact but thru a 3rd party, but im not allowed to show my little girl til he proves himself, judge went with wot cafacss said, he ad to do all work 1st and apply to court if he wants access, so case closedx
hes allowed to send exmas cards and birthday cards but not to me, as i av restainin order in place, so god nos, not my parents they hate him, no idea who cud recieve crads from him, but i av to put them in box for safe keeping,til ex proves himself, x
Sounds good
how you feeling now ?
must be a bit of a daze still xx
dont no to b honest, avin glass wine, wa so hard, espec on my own,and avin b in same room as him,i cried in court i cudnt elp it, x
good to hear things went your way keira, did you get questioned aswell hun x
hi yes but my soliciter asked me few questions,got to much for me, i cried everytym i went in court, was wreck to b honest, x avin to b in same room as mex
Thank heavens it is over, and you did really well to get through it all. I know you will be feeling shell-shocked for a while but then you can put it behind ou once and for all and start looking to the future.
i feel i didnt do well i cried in every court sessionx
i think im gona be the same hun , going in to the court room for the first time on friday not gone in the last times , he,s denying everything turned everything back on to me am so worried they not gonna believe me and am scared to death about gettting questioned by his solicitor , you must be able to breath a sigh of releif now keira its all over , and its right live your life now put it all behind you x
hi well i am glad its alover, i did get the desicion i wanted really,i was aske d2 questions by my soliciter tht was it.my ex was well put in his place by my soliicter, she said u av lied, he said i avnt, she just looked thru his statement which proved he lied, he kept throwin comments bout me in, judges looked at each other,itwent agianst him,then he wud say nice things, he said if it wasnt for wot he did to me abroad we wud stilo b together, cudnt believe it,x
That is ridiculous for him to say that kiera and as for "doing well"...A, you got through it and B. you got the decision you wanted. Very few of us could have gone into that courtroom like Joan of Arc in a film! be glad that the result is as it is 
Anonymous mum, good luck for court today and will be thinking of you.
I hope you've been able to unwind kiera. Glad its over for you.
I hope things go well today Anonymous mum
Hi Kiera,
I've just read through your latest posts, so glad to hear the court stuff has finally come to an end and you got the result you wanted. You must be so relieved.
hi anoymous how are u , ur in court today, ul b ok hun, i understand tho bein anxious,b strong hun im thinkin of uxx
hi everyone thanku all for ur support, it as bin very long year goin thru court, that man asnt got wot he wanted,we wil see if he does all the work he is suppose to, was good feelin tho when judge spoke to him tellin him how he a sdelayed the court procedings due to his lieing and tampering with the drug test, causein me heart ache, and to b told no contact and to go away and prove urself,case closed, his face was a picturex
well i am goin out today with kids to a friends little boys birthday party and summat eat,and tomz goin out with my eldest daughter at night time, we spent day together yesterday was good, she b goin bk uni soon, and wont see her til exmas, gona really miss herx
kiera, absolutely brilliant result. Yes it was a really trying day and I am sure you felt let down by WAVE and yes you cried, who wouldn't? You were vulnerable and alone in a scary environment, but YOU DID IT!
It sounds as though you are going to have a good day with lots going on to take your mind off the last couple of years.
I was wondering how your eldest boy was, how is his thumb? Whilst you have your daughter there, will that give you a chance to go and have a Slush Puppy or something with both of your sons individually? I can imagine the last couple of years have been very hard on them too, mum having a new baby, mum being hurt, upset and confused, mum going to court, mum being stressed. They both deserve some MUM time of their own
Hi Hun well done enjoy time with your kids you SO deserve it x
hi anoymous hope ur ok, how did court go xx
im bit scared what if ex appeals to a higher court, my soliicter mention this, he cud appeal,
and everytime my soliicter questioned my ex, he always brought me into it, she say is also im talkin to u not miss kiera, judges wud look at each other, she mention canabais and how much he ad and how he lied and he say wot bout miss kiera avin cocaine, 3my solicter say miss kiera test was negative unlike urs, and tht is also a withdrew allegation remember, it went against him,sumtimes he spoke with malice towards me, then he wud say i want us to get along for our daughter sakes, i av n othin against her, i wud nlove nothin mroe then to go to er house and pick our daugther up, i thoought yes i bet u wud, then when judge said indirect contycat my solicter ad remind er bout indefinate non molestation order and no contcat at my adress, cfacass guy said these procedings av bin goin on long enuf,, im worried for me and mykids, and for me to av peace,as court procedings very stressful for me and for my kids to see me like this is to much, and he does believe my ex is risk to my little girl til he adress all his issues, ex waited in court on his fone laffing, i walked out head held high with my solicterx
You did indeed hold your head high kiera, and although in theory he could appeal, he would be silly to do so when there is so much evidence against him
hi anoymous bit worried bout u, hope ur ok hunxx
hi keira thanks im ok court was adjourned again back in october for the questioning , i wanted to go in to court this time but solicitor went in without me cos there was no screens , judge decided she only wanted to hear evidence on certain allegations and not the allegations he was already convicted for in 2010 even tho he has tried to minimise that , he has denyed also being raially abusive to my kids but have FB messages proving it so solictor asked for directions to produce the evidence in front of ex when i hadnt made my mind up to use them cos of us arguing on fb,the judge said she wsnt happy about daughter giving evidence but has also orderd it in the end , ......i know i shoulnt of but i looked on his fb and he said that court has dismissed most of my statemnet and wasnt interested about what my daughter has to say i kno i shouldnmt of looked but im now thinking well the judge must of said that cos its very simalar to what iv been told, ..i aslo found out that he has a new baby on the way his girlfreinds 2 months pregnant , this is gonna change so much for me and lil one it shocked and upset me ....i bumped in to him in court in the waiting area on the way to the loo i really welled up went so shaky think i had a panik attack but he wasnt there when i came back out he really snarled me x
Hi anonymous mum, well done on getting through the day, it must have been very hard to see him like that.
So you looked on his FB and he was making these claims and you say "the judge must have said that" It doesn't sound as if the judge did say that, the concern was for your daughter's welfare, not that they were not interested in what she had to say. I know it does not help that you were not in court to hear it with your own ears but you need to rely on your solicitor rather than your ex's FB.
And now he is expecting another child. Your thoughts are that it will change things a lot for you and your little one..what do you mean it willl change things? Do you not think that he will switch the focus from the two of you a bit and it could be beneficial?
morning , my solicitor said she wasnt happy about my daughter giving evidence but said ok in the end , i just feel like with him having another baby on the way he may have more power , he,s already stated that him and his new girl havnt so much as had an argument , and if he does get contact now or in the furture that child is going to by the sibling of my child , as they get a little bit older my child is going to wonder why she has to come home and her brother or sister get to stay with "daddy" theres only me here really and then it will be him getting on the phone ringing up saying shes upset and wants to stay for a bit longer and me saying no , then i become the bad one he,s now making /made a family for himself agagin il neva have that again im to old cant have no more kids he took that away from me forever x
morning hun how are u today just readin ur messagesxx
my ex was saying things in court wot only i wud no and he new wud get to me, he said his daughter as seen his other children once, and i didnt even no tht, tht got me even more upset, he kept sayin i want er to no er half siblings and cum to his home, just got me so upset,u got thru it hun,at least it over with, is it october next hearing, well u av bit breathin space, its awful when u see um isnt it, i walked out lift and he was right there, i walked the other way even tho it was dead end lolx
how old is ur daughter hun, dont even look on his facebook, i made tht mistake ages ago made me worse,adn my ex said hes basically perfect relationship, load rubbish its all for show, it is upsettin to hear tho, as its like he was awful to me yet acordin to him he as perfect relationship but truth is he probably doesntx
my lil ones 16 months old she doesnt understand whats going on , his girlfreind is 17 years younger than him i think he is controlling her he has stopped her from talking to her family and they have been interviewd by ss and they have said he ok to have supervised access to her 14 month old son , but now threr having baby will change evrything , i kno i shouldn look but i wouldnt kno thiese things if i hadnt , i just got the feeling the judge was taking his side a bit dismissing alot of my statement cos of stuff he was already convicted for she just wanyts to hear what went on after that, also looked up info on judge and she likes to mediate familys , where the judge i was supposed to have had special interest in dv this one doesnt seem to have x
Hi I'm ok
my court is fs one with now he's jthings he can manipulate the children from me now hes a very sass man