I just needed to let off a little steam and hopefully off load some of this overwhelming feeling of hopelessness I am suffering at the moment.
I am usually positive and look at the good in every situation yet despite life been good I feel low and seem to be focussing on the negatives.
I know this feeling won't last forever but why when life is good, do I feel so bad??
I have been through so much pain and heartache been separated from my youngest child and I coped, god know's how? but I got through it !! I feel like all of a sudden the ability to cope has deserted me and I am tearful and ratty all the time. I hate feeling this out of control and irrational.
I know I have much to be thankful for yet still I am focussing on the bad bits I want to change, I do have a milestone coming up with regards to my youngest and I suspect this is partly to do with my low mood, but why should this eclipse so many good things. Last week I booked my wedding, everything is exciting and I am marrying someone I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with.
What is wrong with me???
Sorry to off load.
Murray
I used to and still do feel like this at times. I figure that we have to work so hard to cope that sometimes, when things are such that things a toddling along ok, we feel able to slump.
Its only my theory, but it seems to be the way I work - and I can't stop those slumps. It does go away, and there have been times I've enjoyed things toddling along...
I hope things are feeling more positive as the day goes on.
Thank you Lrh and Sparkling I am hoping now I have got it off my chest things will perk up.
Trying to concentrate on staying happy and positive.
Hope you both have a great day.
Hello Murray72,
I expect you are tried out with all that has happened, it is not the sort of tired that one good sleep can sort out but a sort of continuing emotional tiredness...and yes, you can even get this from nice things like planning your wedding (how exciting, you will have to keep us updated!!!)
If you have a grey day or few (I call them Scooby Doo days) then just do what LRH recommends and take extra care of yourself and rest and wait for it to pass. There seems to be a lot of pressure nowadays to be "happy all the time" and that is not natural; as human beings we have our ups and downs and without being sexist it seems to me that women are more prone to this, often without an external reason
Hope today will be a better day for you 
...and by the way the opposite of a Scooby Doo day is a Zippy-da-doo-da day!
aah murray - sorry you are feeling like this - sorry to say I think this is all part of dealing with the process and something that you have to go through - I used to try and analyse why I felt the way I did and fight against it and get angry and frustrated - now what I do is accept it - rest and look after myself and it passes much quicker - hope you can do the same and it has the same effect - sending you a hug