I hate my ex

My ex and I have seperate homes.  We had this problem when we were together.

He has a mortgage on a house in Weston, Mine in Gloucester.  Anyway I moved in with him and rented mine out.  After 18 months I got pregnant and since that time he started accusing me of having affairs and texting other men. Which I was never doing.

When I became 6 months pregnant he said he didnt love me anymore and my whole life fell apart.  I was isolated from my family and friends who live in chelt and gloucester and my only comfort was my midwife who I cried to for the next few appointments I had with her.

I managed to get so stressed that my waters broke on sat 16th February and I spent 3 days in hospital before my daughter seren was born at 33 weeks.

To make matters worse Matt asked for my forgiveness just before Seren was born but upset me again by not getting me a valentines card.

Seren spent two weeks in special care and I spent all day everyday with her whilst Mat was at work.

4 days after Seren came home, Matt walked out on me again and said he couldnt do this.  I was extremely upset again and shocked that he would treat us this way.

Now Matt lives with two male lodgers and I live on my own with Seren. 

Matt only comes up once a fortnight and I have spent many painful conversations argueing with him over his lack of committment.  Why would he not want to see our baby.  She is amazing.  Now I feel she is being treated like I am and to make matters worse he tries to criticise how I care for seren.

One minute I want to scream the next I cant stop crying.

Does anyone understand?

Hi Joanne

Welcome to the site!

I have replied to the post you put in 5 stages of grief. Keep posting and letting us know how you and Seren are. You have a little fighter there

Take care

J xx

Thanks for getting back to me, I m not great at computers so that explains why i went to the wrong bit.

I really appreciate your comments and I know I have to let go of my bitter feelings and totally focus on Seren.